Day 8

Bad day again really. I felt horrible when I woke up and had to go to tutoring again even though it was the last thing I wanted to do. Then after I got through an hour and a half of torture I went back to bed to sleep. I slept for probably 5 hours and then I woke up feeling just as bad as when I went to sleep. I was supposed to go to my meeting with my counsellor person Linda but I didn't go to that either so I messed up another thing. I haven't been out of my bedroom today except to go down to tutoring and get a drink and something to eat. At the moment I am just sitting in my chair in my room with a duvet around me and my laptop. I just feel horrible! My mum is mad at me again and I just don't know what to do anymore. I really just want to die and not have to deal with any of this crap ever again. At least I could have some peace and just not have to worry if I did die. That's my post for today anyway. Who knows if I will post tommorow.

Day 6

So I had a pretty good day today and got a lot more motivated. I took a walk down to the corner shop with my Dad and Lola and brought some treats. It was pretty hot out there I can say! Now I am just chilling because I have finished my jobs and done a 'Personal Profile' which my brother asked me to do. It was quite intresting, the idea is to write about your weaknesses, your strengths, your good and bad features, and just a little about yourself and how you think. It is a bit like writing a CV, only your being honest about yourself. It gives you a good idea about what things you can improve and stuff. Obviously somethings you won't ever be able to change but some you can make a start on.

We put a cute little bow on Lola today as well and she looked ADORABLE!!! I will post the picture in a sec and you can all say "awww!" :) She helps me a lot day to day as she is always there around the house and is always pleased to see you which is nice. It sounds dumb but it is true!

Apart from that I haven't really done much today! I had my tutoring lesson but I still hate them and don't really want to talk about the 1 hour and a 1/4 of hell! It isn't my tutor but it is something about that makes me lose concertration constantly and just want to go and punch something!

That's all for today really and thanks again for reading! Pass on to your friends and make sure to share it! Thanks :)

Day 2 Of My Life

Hey guys. I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday but I had a really bad day. Felt really depressed and down so not good at all! Thanks for all the reads and please do tell your friends as I want to really get this out there. So, I was also quite busy yesterday EARNING MONEY! Yep that's right I found a decent site that isn't about filling in surveys which is great! If you leave me a comment I will send you a referral link so we both get something out of it. All it is is basically you review a song and based on the quality of your review you get paid! It's pretty good!

Anyway, I had my tutor lesson today which I HATED! It just makes me feel even more depressed and now I have my CBT appointment in about an hour and a half which I'm not looking forward to at all! 

Also does anyone have any good games on the Internet to play because I'm quite bored! 

Thanks for reading please pass on and get the word out! :)

My First Blog!

So this is my first ever blog! I'm 12 years old and suffering from depression which isn't very nice! I have good days and bad days so I though I could post them through this blog for other people to see, so when I do feel better other people can look back at this and see you can get through all the tough stuff in life.

A bit about me? Well like I said I'm 12 and I live in England. I live with my mum and dad and my brother. We also have a dog called Lola who is adorable and helps me a lot (photo down there tell me what you think of her!)! I like gaming, facebook, twitter, my blackberry and just having fun really.

Today I don't feel too bad although the feeling of depression is always there which isn't nice :( Any advice of good things to do when you have depression? It would help a lot I think! Anyway there's my first blog, thanks for reading! Izzy x