I'm back!

Hello there! So, so, so, so, SO sorry I haven't updated in so long! I have had the worst month ever really so haven't had the motivation to do anything! If that makes you feel better? I haven't forgotten about you!! I'm back now though hopefully! 

So today I did my tutoring again (I stopped going to that as well) and I still don't like it but, hey, I have to do it! Also I was just learning how to do some coding. I have pretty much got to grips with HTML coding so I'm happy! Anyone else do coding? I want to hopefully make an app when I am good enough, though it is going to take ages! 

So I haven't really done much for the last few weeks except for stay in the house and stuff. Not much to update on! I will be updating daily now though so check back! 

Thanks and sorry again!

Day 8

Bad day again really. I felt horrible when I woke up and had to go to tutoring again even though it was the last thing I wanted to do. Then after I got through an hour and a half of torture I went back to bed to sleep. I slept for probably 5 hours and then I woke up feeling just as bad as when I went to sleep. I was supposed to go to my meeting with my counsellor person Linda but I didn't go to that either so I messed up another thing. I haven't been out of my bedroom today except to go down to tutoring and get a drink and something to eat. At the moment I am just sitting in my chair in my room with a duvet around me and my laptop. I just feel horrible! My mum is mad at me again and I just don't know what to do anymore. I really just want to die and not have to deal with any of this crap ever again. At least I could have some peace and just not have to worry if I did die. That's my post for today anyway. Who knows if I will post tommorow.

Day 7

A horrible day today! I only had about 3 hours sleep and then I had to get up for tutoring. I was about 45 minutes late and I just couldn't be bothered with it at all! Then I went back to bed and had 2-3 hours sleep and woke up in a worse mood to be honest! I am now lying in bed on my laptop I feel like absolute crap :( 

I'm pretty tired even now and I am fighting to stay awake. This is a shot post today sorry, but I'm really tired and not in the mood, just thought I should give you guys something! 

The picture is me and Lola a couple of months ago! :) 

Day 6

So I had a pretty good day today and got a lot more motivated. I took a walk down to the corner shop with my Dad and Lola and brought some treats. It was pretty hot out there I can say! Now I am just chilling because I have finished my jobs and done a 'Personal Profile' which my brother asked me to do. It was quite intresting, the idea is to write about your weaknesses, your strengths, your good and bad features, and just a little about yourself and how you think. It is a bit like writing a CV, only your being honest about yourself. It gives you a good idea about what things you can improve and stuff. Obviously somethings you won't ever be able to change but some you can make a start on.

We put a cute little bow on Lola today as well and she looked ADORABLE!!! I will post the picture in a sec and you can all say "awww!" :) She helps me a lot day to day as she is always there around the house and is always pleased to see you which is nice. It sounds dumb but it is true!

Apart from that I haven't really done much today! I had my tutoring lesson but I still hate them and don't really want to talk about the 1 hour and a 1/4 of hell! It isn't my tutor but it is something about that makes me lose concertration constantly and just want to go and punch something!

That's all for today really and thanks again for reading! Pass on to your friends and make sure to share it! Thanks :)